So we’ve reached the point in our story that I actually started this blog in the first place. About a month after I moved in to my tiny little house with the Gurl Child, two dogs and a pregnant cat in tow. I was still taking calls from Tucker but less and less frequently and still figuring out the “master plan”. If you go back to Today, you can see that about a month afterwards, I was still hurting but couldn’t really explain why.
If you see Ripping the Bandaid Off a mere two weeks later, I was ready to be done with him….all the way done, I just hadn’t steeled myself as of yet. By three months further on down the line, I had decided to get the divorce done and you’ll see how that conversation went if you read Sugar Doll.
In the interim, I didn’t do much except work, try to get better jobs and eat. A lot. I’ve since decided to not wallow but dating hasn’t been super kind to me either. I suppose I must learn my lesson from Starfish and TBone. Starfish was three weeks’ worth of I love you’s from a dude that seemed too good to be true and then turned out to be a batshit crazy motherfucker that had drugs literally mailed to my house.
We all know the ballad of TBone. I am still having trouble trying to figure out why that’s bothering me so much except for the fact that I hurt him like I did. I am a smartass, mouthy bitch but I still don’t like hurting people’s feelings and truthfully, I was still on the edge of “maybe this can work out.” I was on the brink of “You ain’t getting any younger or better lookin and maybe you should just quit while you’re ahead.” I’m thinking I would have pulled out of that particular death spiral before I crash landed but my MO usually entails absolutely hating a sumbitch before I get rid of him so… probably not.
I shall keep updates inserted regarding Tucker because I still get them from time to time from random and unexpected sources. Just today, in fact, a Facebook message from someone long forgotten…
I’ve been talking to Tucker every day and he has been asking me to message and make sure everything is going well and that he loves you. I understand if you don’t want to talk to him but I am just doing him a favor.
I mean he can sell nuggets to a chicken and get random people to do all kinds of things. He’s good at it. I’m sure we’ll hear more and he’s scheduled for release in November so I may be moving, who knows?
In any case, I hope you continue to visit while I sign up for stupid dating sites and go on awkward dates and raise the world’s most awesome Gurl Child.